mom gone quiet

I recently wrote about Husband and I taking separate vacations each visiting our families flying it solo with the kids.  The payoff is that we each have time alone, the cost is that we continue to delay taking a vacation together (which we sorely need).  I had my vacation with the boys in July .  Now I’m by myself.  All by myself.

Please don’t be singing sad songs for me.  Mama’s doing alright.  In fact, I must say that I’d give myself a B+ on not being a complete lazy bum while the boys are away.  I’ve done laundry.  However there are four baskets of clothes that are yet to be folded and put away.  I started the yard project, which was damn miraculous.  Although I’ve got about three more days of work to do.  I did foreworn Husband to keep expectations low as to not be disappointed.  He was itching to make me a list, but he didn’t dare.  It’s my vacation, afterall.

So far, I got my yearly girly exam, spoke with a naturopath for an alternative perspective, and addressed some dog training issues.  I’ve visited with an old friend and welcomed another into our home (One of my oldest friends, Jeffrey, got a new job out here.  For now we’re his halfway home until he finds a place to live.).  I also ran away for a quick girlfriends’ trip to San Francisco.  That was debacherous good fun (and I realize “debacherous” is not a real word, but it should be).

I even extended my vacation and had a drunk day at home.  I downloaded the pictures from the weekend trip, slept, drank too much and watched too much tv.  It was great.  Have you ever seen Damn Yankees?  The dancing and quick-witted dialogue captured my heart.  Oh and then Bachelor Pad and Dating in the Dark came on and I eventually fell asleep.  I felt like Mom Gone Wild.  Getting drunk and watching tv.  Oh the excitement.

But it all sounds pretty good, doesn’t it?  My visiting friend said it simply, “It must feel great not to be needed by anyone or anything.”  I know that I’m needed still, don’t get me wrong.  I love this brief break of quiet as compared to the unrelenting demand of little ones’ needs, schedules and incessant talking the rest of the year.  I needed this vacation.  Shhh…did you hear that?  No. Me neither.  Ahhh…

The boys will be back on Saturday and my life full of boyness will be in full swing.  I’ll have changed out the furniture in BabyD’s room (he’s getting a big boy bed and a chest of drawers), made more progress in the backyard, paid bills and finally folded all the laundry.  Monday will be the first day of Kindergarten.  Tuesday will be swim class for BabyD.  Wednesday will be my exercise class and laundry day.  Thursday will be soccer practice.  And life as a SAHM (soon to be WAHM) begins again.

Until then, my wish for you is that you have a moment of not being needed, no list of to dos poking you and no place that you have to be.  Enjoy the silence.  Just be.  Even if for a little while.  Find some moment of peace that is just for you.  Be okay with having a lazy moment.  I think it’s good for the soul. I only have a few more days left, but I’m going to enjoy them fully and quietly.  Mom gone quiet.  Cheers friends.